This is my FAVORITE time of year! :) I love, love, LOVE the holidays!! I love being able to get together with family and hang out. Spend good, quality time together. I just love it. It does definitely make me miss my Momma though. She loved the holidays, probably even more than I do, if that's possible, so it's really hard to not have her here to celebrate with.... That's one thing, I know, that bothers Justin a lot, too. We've talked about it a lot here lately. He just doesn't get into the holidays what.so.ever. He could honestly just skip from Oct. to Jan. and be perfectly fine. :( His mother got sick at the very end of Oct, beginning of Nov. and she passed away on Dec. 15th. Also, last year, we lost his Grandma on Dec. 3rd. It's definitely hard, I know that. I cannot and will not, say that I know how he feels, because I don't. Yes, I lost my mother, and to a brain tumor as well, but A. I didn't lose her as young as he did, B. I didn't lose her so close to the holidays, and C. even if I had been through both of those things, the bottom line is, everyone feels things differently. While I can say I know what it's like to lose MY mother, I cannot say I know how HE feels. It would just be insensitive for me to say that, too. *Sigh* My heart really hurts for him. I can't imagine what it was like to lose his mother so young..... I know he hurts too. I can see it in his face and hear it in his voice when he talks about it & her. I guess I just hope that all of the bad things that have happened in the month of December for him & his family, don't stop us from having wonderful holidays and starting our own traditions with Griffyn. I just worry about that. I hate the fact that I love this time of year soooooo much, and that he loathes it soooooooo much. How are we ever going to come mutual ground? I just want everything for my daughter, and I want her to have a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas, not just this year, but every year. I also know that he will do whatever it takes to make sure that happens.
I have some pretty exciting news on the Justin Vs. Bible Study front!!!! We had a lonnnnnggggg discussion last night, after I got home from small groups and was talking to him about it (like I usually do) and he was asking me questions (like he usually does) about a lot of stuff that I honestly can't come close to answering. So, I was texting Joel (my pastor for those who don't know) about his questions and getting responses and telling Justin what he said. Long story short, Justin has decided to come to small groups next week!!!!!! O.M.G. For those of you who know him, you know how incredibly big this is. :) I'm pretty psyched!!!!! The only issue we will have is if we end up having it on Wed. night (since Thanksgiving is on our normal Thurs) he won't be able to go. But, I have asked Joel if we could have it on Tues. night so he can. Soooooooo as long as that pans out, he will totally be there. I asked him to go, even if he doesn't participate at all in the discussion, just to listen and see how things are, and that it's not what he has in his mind for it to be. I've also asked Joel if he would do a Q&A sometime, like we did a few weeks ago, if Justin came, so that he could ask some of the questions he always asks me, that I don't have answers to, and he said he would definitely be willing to do that! :) I'm so so so so so excited for this! I'm not gonna lie. I cried last night when he told me he would go. I honestly didn't even have to convince him, he just said he would come. SHOCKED doesn't even begin to describe it, but I am so so so thankful and happy and excited! The funny/ironic/whatever you want to call it, thing about it is, next week, our chapter in our small groups book is about questions that non-believers have. How crazy is THAT?! God really does work in mysterious ways. I just told Justin that yes, I would LOVE for him to believe in God, yes I would love for him to have faith like I do, yes I would love for him to quit putting us all into one category, etc etc. but mostly, at this point, all I'm asking is for him to go in with an open mind. I'm asking that he just listen, that he absorb what Joel and anyone else has to say, if he chooses to participate that's GREAT, if not, that's ok too. I just want him to realize that just because people are Christians, does not mean that they are like Fred Phelps (or any of the other crazies). And he has agreed to do it! So, just pray that things go smoothly! lol I'm kinda nervous about it, just because I know how "intense" he can get. I also know that he is very respectful and he isn't going to treat anyone different than they treat him and because of that, and knowing the people that I'm in the small group with, I think it's gonna be great. :) He said he doesn't want them to treat me any different when they find out how he feels/thinks, too. Which I thought was sweet of him to be concerned, BUT, I also stressed to him, that the people I'm in small groups with, aren't like that. Even if they don't like ANYTHING he has to say, lol, they aren't going to treat me any different because of that. I just can't believe he's going to go!!! I honestly never, ever thought this day would come. I'm getting teary-eyed just thinking about it. I better move on! :)
We got family pics taken last week. They turned out AWESOME! I won't share them all, but for the people who only read my blog and don't have me on FB, here's a few of my favorites! :)
I love them!!! I think they turned out fabulous! And I love the photographer. She is wonderful to work with. Even Justin said he had a great time, and he HATES to have his picture taken!! He also had genuine smiles in ALL of the pics!!! Most of the time he's totally faking it! lol But, I thought they turned out great. Now, we gotta decide what Christmas cards to get so we can have them mailed out. :)
Griffyn turned 6 MONTHS OLD yesterday!!! Can you believe it?! I know I sure can't.... I can't believe it's gone by so fast. It still feels like we were just having her, just bringing her home from the hospital. Now, she eats all different kinds of food, she drinks (sort of, lol) from a sippy cup with juice, she sits up on her own, she bounces like nobody's business, she scoots all over the floor, she plays with toys, she babbles, she blows raspberries, I could go on and on and on... I am just so so amazed by her every single day. There is truly nothing better in the world than being a Mommy. I am so excited to share in her first holiday's!!!!!!!!! :) Even though she won't remember them, that's what the Mamarattzi is for! ;) We'll have TONS and TONS of pictures! :) I think Justin & I are going to get a tree after Thanksgiving and put it up. I'm not sure if I've said this before or not, but it will be the first Christmas tree we've had together, too! :) We've just never put one up before. I'm excited!! I haven't put a Christmas tree up in several years, probably since the last time I helped my mom do hers. I can't wait! :) I have also decided, at least one tradition we're going to start, is getting Griffyn an ornament every year. So, I need to find the perfect one for her. I need to do some thinking on other traditions I would like to start with our little family, and see what ideas Justin has, too. We are doing Christmas with Justin's family on the 17th of Dec. Not sure about mine yet, but it looks like we will most likely have Christmas Eve & Day with just our little family!! I'm pretty excited about that too. It'll be nice to just hang out in our jammies and enjoy each other! :) Oh, I just can't wait.
Well, nothing else new for now, I don't think. We finally got a new cord for our Mac so it is back in business. THANK THE LORD! I have soooooooo missed it! :) Justin is back to working nights, if I didn't mention that before. Boo. I hate having to spend the evenings alone, not to mention having to go to bed at night, alone. Boo.... Only a few more weeks though! :) Nothing new on the AD front either. It's just supposedly moving through the chain. Justin said he would call on it next week and see if they know anything different yet, so we shall see. I hope you all are going to enjoy your weekend! We have my niece's 4th b/day party tomorrow and also my in-laws are taking pics with them and the grandkids. It should be fun! :) Sad the hubs has to work, all weekend, but he's still going to try to make it to the party for awhile anyway. Enjoy!
1. I am so thankful that we are able to be here for the holidays, to spend it with our families, again this year.
2. I am thankful that Griffyn is such a happy, healthy girl. :)
3. I am thankful that, even though we may not get to do everything we want to, or buy everything we want to, we have everything we NEED.
"God is good all of the time, all of the time God is good."
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