Tomorrow marks the "5 year anniversary" of Justin asking me to be his girlfriend. :) We actually met in the last week of March, but he didn't "officially" ask until April 13. :) Every day I wake up, look at him, and wonder how I got so lucky!! The only things I know for sure is that it is true, you really have to go through the crap, to appreciate the good. I had so many relationships that just... sucked, lol for lack of a better word. And then I got with him and everything was and is so easy. That's how I knew it was for real, that this was going to be something that would last forever, that it was something I'd never experienced before. Even to this day he makes everything so easy. He makes it so easy to be & stay sooooo in love. I feel like everyday he wakes up and thinks "What can I do to make her life easier?" He may not, lol but that's definitely how it feels. He takes such good care of me. I couldn't have asked for a better person to share my life with. I can remember, only 2 weeks after we really started dating/hanging out, inseparably, I e-mailed my mom and literally said the words "this is the guy I'm going to marry." It is true that when you know, you just know. I feel blessed that he felt the same way. That he always wanted to make me his wife. That he never wanted to be without me. I always knew that's exactly where we were headed. We have been through so many things in the last 5 years. I know that's why we have the type of relationship we do, because we've gotten so close through all of the good & bad that we've been dealt. We never wavered. I love the fact that we've never, ever, through any of it, had to have the conversation that has the words "maybe we shouldn't be together" or anything of the sort, in them. I love that about him too. We have wonderful communication. We work through everything. There's so many things about our relationship that I never told anyone. It's just between him & I, good & bad, and we have always gotten through it. We can sit and talk for hours and never run out of things to say. I love that every single day, he tells me I'm the "most beautiful girl in the world", that he is "so in love with me" and that he "couldn't imagine his life without me". EVERY DAY! I never would even have a chance to doubt or forget, because it's there. Whether he's here, whether he's at drill, whether he's in the field, doesn't matter. He never let's a day go by without telling me how much he cares about me and how much I mean to him. I really can't imagine my life without him in it. I feel so blessed that God has given me such a wonderful man. We talk often about how one of our favorite parts of our relationship is we are exactly the same way whether people are around or not. We don't feel the need to put on a show to "show how happy we are" because we just are. We are silly together whether there's other people around or we are just sitting on the couch by ourselves. That's something else I just love about him. I love that we can agree to disagree and discuss it. No one raises their voice, no one gets upset, we just talk. We really do have that 'once in a lifetime' love. I honestly was beginning to think, before I met him, that it would never come along. That people were just saying they had it, the few people I've met that really, truly do. But it is true. Love shouldn't take so much "hard work". It should be easy. I never understood this until I was with him. Sure there are obstacles that we've had to overcome in our life, but as far as our actual love... it doesn't take work. It just is. He doesn't have to remember why he loves me or why he's with me, he knows. Every second of the day. I don't ever have to stop and think, this isn't worth it, I shouldn't have to deal with this. He never makes me sorry I married him. If anything, he makes me sorry that I didn't get to meet him sooner! But I know that there's a reason for everything, and like I stated before, I really don't think I would have such an appreciation for the man he is and the relationship we have, had I not gone through some really crappy ones. What can I say? He's my favorite. :) I know I "brag" about him a lot, but it's hard not to! I just don't have things to complain about, sorry!! :)
I'm also lucky to have so many wonderful friends in my life. The people that truly are friends. I'm lucky to say I have more than a handful! I don't just have one or two people I can count on and that I know really care, I have a bunch! I love the types of friendships I have with most of my them. The type that you don't have to try, there isn't drama, the type that you can be honest and they can be honest and you are still friends. I appreciate people who can tell me how they feel, about anything, and know that I would do the same for them. I like the fact that my friends & I don't always have to agree. But, that when we don't, we are still that.... friends! I am thankful that at least most of my friends don't come with a "manual" of how to be their friend. What is acceptable and what isn't. Most of them I could go days or even weeks without speaking to, and when we do speak again, they aren't upset because it's been so long. We just pick right back up where we left off. They assume that, like themselves, they have a busy life and they know that we don't have to talk every day to still care about each other. :) I especially love when I get random text messages from someone. It makes ME feel like "Hey! They were thinking about me!" Or it makes me feel lucky that whatever it is they are randomly asking/talking about, they felt like coming to ME, of everyone they know, to ask/discuss it. There are so many people out there who thrive on drama and negativity. As I get older, I realize more and more how much I don't need people like that in my life. All they do is bring you down. I see so many people on facebook who are constantly miserable. I just can't imagine being that way. There's always something to smile about. There's always reasons to be happy. I just can't imagine living your life so upset all the time, or always trying to "prove" something to someone.
I just feel lucky. I feel lucky that, for the most part, I don't have to deal with negative people, except on occasion. lol I feel lucky that I have so many things to smile and laugh about in my life. I feel lucky that when I go to bed at night, I can sleep peacefully, knowing that I'm living my life exactly the way that I want to. I feel lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life who make me a better person & appreciate me. I feel lucky to have an amazing man to call my husband and in a little over a month, the father to my baby girl. I feel lucky!! So incredibly lucky & blessed that THIS is my life. We are just getting ready to open soooo many new chapters. I can't wait to see what happens in them. Parenting is going to be amazing. I don't think I've ever looked forward to anything as much as I am this incredible journey. We are going active duty & we're going to be able to travel the WORLD! How many people can say that? Most people feel "stuck" in their lives. I feel like my life is just beginning!! I have many things to look forward to, in this year, and the many, many years to come! And the best part? I have so many incredible people I get to share it with! :)
