Not one bit.

I'm frustrated. I'm jealous of one of my bestie's (Tara) because she gets to move out of this place. She left today to be exact. I honestly did not think that she would beat us out of here. She moved back here last Feb. to stay with her parents while her husband was deployed for a year. Well here it is Feb tomorrow and she is gone, and we are still here.............. It upsets me because I just didn't think this would be the case. What.so.ever. When Justin submitted his package in March 2011 we honestly believed them when they said we would have an answer "within 6 months and it never takes that long". HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here we are (almost) 11 months later and we still have ABSOLUTELYNOTHING. To say that we are frustrated, angry, upset, disappointed, mentally exhausted etc. doesn't even begin to describe it. I just can't believe it. I mean, I guess NOW, after all that we've gone through with this process, I can believe it, but especially in the beginning, I can't believe we've gone through all that we have, and we still aren't anywhere..... I am trying so so so so so SO hard to stay positive, but I feel like I'm running out of energy to do so. :( It just sucks. When we moved here, it was under the circumstances that we would be here a year or less. Well.... in just a few short months, it will be 2 years since we moved back. This is depressing. Nothing against people who do like living here, who do like this town, etc. but it's just no for us. It would be the equivalent of you moving somewhere you didn't want to be (wherever that may be) and not being able to get out. It's hard, it's depressing........ I mean, some may ask why we moved back, when we were living in Manhattan? I'll tell you why. At that point, we didn't have a choice. I had been laid off from my job in Dec. of 2009. Justin never had a job while we lived in Manhattan because he was going to school. Soooooo us not having an income was going to be very difficult to survive. We decided that we would move back to Lyons (where his family lives) because his cousin got him a job here. It was better than what we had in Manhattan, which was 0 money. But, again, it was with the understanding that we were going to find something and do it, within a year of moving here. Ugh.......... We both just never dreamed this process would be such a nightmare.... I mean, sure, in a lot of ways it has DEFINITELY worked out for us. Having Griffyn here and being able to be surrounded by our family and friends, has been wonderful. I am thankful for being able to have gotten so involved in my church and small groups, too. There's definitely been positives, for sure. But, it's just not where we want to be. It also sucks that the job market is complete crap. So, it's not like we can just pick somewhere and move and find a job at the drop of a hat, either. That's one more reason why we've been relying on this AD thing.
Anyway, his unit is saying now that they aren't sure how to process the request mast thing. (Typical right?) Well, I should say, the person Justin's been going through has said that, so nothing's been done with it yet. He is going to call someone else in his COC tonight and see if he can get any further there. I just really hope, after all that we've gone through with this whole thing, that something positive comes out of this. I dunno what we'll do if it just turns out to be a bust and goes no where. I know we both will be really crushed if he gets turned down for some reason (I.E. the fact that they are trying to downsize is really the only reason it MIGHT happen) and we could've been doing something else for the last year but instead were waiting on them. I just hope something happens with it, or if not, that another door is opened for us. I dunno how much longer we can survive here and keep our sanity.