Today I ran 1.5 miles, I did day 15, and the love handle workout. No legs or arms. I can definitely feel a difference. I've noticed it the last week or so. I feel really good. I'm anxious to weigh in at the end of the month. I'm still hoping for that 10 pound weight loss this month. We'll see!
We didn't hear anymore from the USMC this week. Not sure why they didn't call when they received his paperwork (assuming they have). So we're figuring either they didn't get it by today like they thought they would, or they did get it but still aren't sure what to do next, or they just didn't call. lol Justin is going to call probably on Tues. (Monday is a holiday for them so they won't be in the office, and today may have been too) so I guess we'll see next week what they say. I mean, they and we already know he is for sure approved, they were just waiting for his paperwork to make its way back down the chain of command so they have it in Topeka, and then for them to figure out what the next step is. It should be, from what we know, going in to sign his re-enlistment stuff and then there's a ton of stuff after that. But, hopefully we are past all the hard stuff! :)
We have had an overwhelming amount of people express how sad they are that he has been approved and eventually we will be leaving. This both warms and hurts my heart. Not gonna lie, I've been in tears more than not, in the last several days since finding out. Just sooooo many people are sad about it.... :( We are too, to a point. I mean, yes, this is definitely what we wanted, and what we've been working for, but it won't make it any easier to have to leave all the people we will have to leave behind, family/friends/church family etc. So it's bittersweet, for sure. It's also made me totally freak out about our future. I mean, yes we did know this is what we were doing, but also, like I've mentioned previously, we were beginning to think it wasn't going to happen so we kinda got to where it was on the back burner in our minds/life, and all of a sudden it slapped us in the face. It's scary. I'm not gonna lie. We are pretty nervous and scared about it, too. I know I am much more than Justin is. He says (like he says about everything) "It'll be fine" and that no matter what happens "we're gonna make it work." I'm so lucky to have someone like him in my life, as my husband. He definitely keeps me sane, keeps me calm, when I'm on the verge of a breakdown. But anyway, yes, I am definitely nervous and scared about this whole thing. It's scary to think about the great big world out there outside of little ol' Kansas. Neither one of us have ever lived outside of Ks, and we've only ever lived a few hours from family. For the last almost 2 years we've been in the same town as my in-laws and only 30 miles from my family. Like my dad mentioned today he is sad he won't be able to just "drop by" when he wants to see us. *sigh* It is sad, and it is scary... for sure....... I also hope though, that people are excited for us to start this HUGE adventure of our lives and know that just because we move away doesn't mean we aren't still gonna be "here" in a sense. I mean we'll just be a phone call/skype call away! It's also scary to think about that if something was to happen or if we just wanted to come home "just because", we wouldn't be able to do that very easy, like we could when we lived in Manhattan. But, we knew this when we started this process. This has always, always been what we were going to do, one way or another. When Justin joined the USMC almost 5 years ago (ALREADY!) it was with the intent that when he was done with KSU he would be going to OCS and go in as an Officer. Now of course, he has changed his mind and decided to just go Enlisted, but my point is, the Marine Corps has always been what we were going to do. Not that that makes it any easier for us or for anyone else, but that's the truth. Justin has always said he wants to be a Marine every day, not just one weekend a month. I'm extremely proud of him, for all that he has accomplished. I'm excited for this journey, but really nervous about it, too. With so many people being sad/upset that we are leaving, it's made me question a lot of things. It's made me ask a lot of questions. It's made me wonder if this is really what we are supposed to be doing. What if we hate it? What if we get there and we are so homesick we can't get over it? What if it causes a ton of stress on our marriage and we don't know what to do about it? What if we don't make any friends? What if he deploys (a lot) and G and I are out there by ourselves? What if it's not at all what we planned on it being? What if it hurts G's relationships with her extended family? These are all questions that we've asked each other, that we've been discussing for a long while now, but more so in the past week since it all became "real". We aren't gonna sugar coat it, yes we are really excited that this has happened and IS happening, but we are really nervous and a bit scared about starting this HUGE adventure as well. We're also going into it with the idea of it being for 4 years. If we decide we don't like it, it isn't for us, then we are going to get out and do something else. So! We will see how it goes.... I just ask that you pray for us & that you support us the best that you can. I understand some of you are really sad, and that's ok. We are sad to a point as well. We aren't thrilled about having to leave our families, to have G have to grow up across the country from everyone, but this is what we feel is best for our family right now. Are we sure it's what will always be best? No. And if it doesn't work out, at least we know we tried, we went for it, and we tried. It would be better than always questioning "what if?" later. *Sigh* I dunno... I guess all I'm saying ultimately is, we are excited, we are nervous, but we truly are sad about having to leave eventually. All we're asking is you support us the best you know how. It's ok for you to be sad we are leaving, it definitely makes us feel loved (not that we didn't before!) but try to be happy for us, too, starting this new chapter. And remember, wherever we end up, east coast or west coast, you'll always have a vacation spot!! ;) And who knows!! It could be MONTHS and MONTHS from now before we go anywhere! :)
Anyway, another update is on my bestie, Megan. She had another sono done and they said she had bleeding in her stomach and her bladder as well, from the cyst bursting. The doc she saw yesterday told her she was lucky to be alive. Scary!!! They are still going to wait and see, though. He said he thinks by the looks and sounds of it, it's healing on it's own and that he thinks her body will absorb the blood on it's own. They told her to wait until next week and if she's still in pain or it's worse then she will go back in and they will discuss what to do from there. But at this point, they aren't talking surgery so this is great news for her. Just keep her in your prayers, please!
That's all I know for now I suppose. I hope you all had a great week and will have a great weekend! :)
1. I am thankful for this beautiful weather! Hoping it stays this way and Spring is around the corner!
2. I am thankful for getting our tax returns filed today and hopefully having them next week to get some stuff paid completely off!
3. I am thankful God always providing what we NEED. It may not always be what we WANT, but we always, always have what we need.
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