I found out I was pregnant for the VERY first time!!!!!!!!!! Omg it was such an amazing feeling. To see the "pregnant" show up, without the "not" in front of it?!? Wow. It was crazy. I got up that morning, super early, I hadn't even told Justin I bought a test, but I just "knew". So I took it and I waited and watch the blinking hour glass for what seemed like HOURS until it stopped and I had to stare at it and stare at it and stare at it forever!! I kept opening and shutting my eyes I just couldn't believe what I was actually seeing! So once I finally (sort of) believe it, I went in and jumped on our bed (Justin was still sleeping at this point) and I just laid there and stared at him. He finally opened his eyes and I had this big goofy grin on my face and he was like whhhaatttt?? Soooo I said guess what... haha he said whhhaaatt??? I said ummmmmmm WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!!!!! He was shocked. lol I mean after all, we'd been trying for 8 months and nothing had happened so it WAS pretty crazy! But, once the shock wore off, we were sooo excited about it!! :)
Unfortunately, our excitement ended just a few weeks later. On September 11th, (of all days!!) I started bleeding, and I'll save you the details, but I went to the doctor and found out I was having a miscarriage... Wow. What a devastating blow. That is a really hard thing to go through. Something you just can't completely understand until you've been there. It's hard, but we survived and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?! :) As most of you know, we also had another miscarriage the following March. But, that also means even though my mom can't be a grandma down here, she's being a grandma to my angels up in heaven. <3 I also got some news from a friend today that makes me soooo excited, so it made the day great! :)
Well, anyway, on a happier note! G and I hung out for most of the day, just chilled. (She slept til 10:30 today!) And then I went up to help my SIL again at her office for a couple hours this afternoon. And I got paid from the few days I've helped her!! So that was a nice little check to put in the bank too and Justin gets paid tomorrow! :) Speaking of tomorrow, I won't be able to blog tomorrow night because... I'M GOING TO MY FIRST NFL GAME!! :) I get to go watch the Chiefs play with my hubs and my FIL! I'm pretty excited about going, actually! It should be a good time! We're going to leave around noon thirty and tailgate when we get there, lol then the game is at 7, I think. I'm excited to go see the game and see the stadium too. My FIL gets season tix but this year he got 4 instead of 2. :) So I'll be sure to take some pics and upload those on my blog post on Saturday. We won't be home until like 3am and I will surely want to hit the hay! :)
On another negative nancy note, ugh! Our friend that is active duty, AJ (he's my bestie's hubby, deployed to Afghanistan right now) had his career planner check on Justin's paperwork for AD, and guess what?!?!?! IT'S NOT SHOWING IN THE SYSTEM! Are you kidding me??? OMG We are soooo beyond frustrated. Here it is 2 weeks from being 6 months (when they told us at the latest we would have an answer) and it's not even showing in the system as being processed by ANYONE. So for all we know, it's still sitting on the desk in his admin section at his unit. Ugh it is sooooo frustrating!! So he told his Sgt about it and I guess they are giving them until drill (2nd week of Sept) to have some sort of answer for him, otherwise he's going to the higher ups about it. Let's hope SOMETHING gets done! I'm just so frustrated with this whole thing, I cannot believe what a mess it's turned out to be. AJ can't either, he's an Admin chief and he says there's NO reason any of this should've ever happened, let alone KEEP happening. Sometimes I think it may be a "sign" that it's not what we are supposed to be doing and it's God's way of telling us that. So, I txt my pastor about it today and his response basically was that any "life changing" events he says to pray about it for a year. He said at the same time that you have to evaluate yourself and ask if you are praying that it happens because you want it to happen or if you are praying that you want God's Will to happen. Also he mentioned to be looking for other doors to be opening, that sometimes that's a "sign" that this isn't the right direction. But right now, there haven't been any other doors, that I'm aware of anyway! Plus, I also feel like we haven't done every possible thing yet to get this to happen (like him requesting mast, talking to the higher ups) so until that point, when we've exhausted all options/avenues, I guess we will keep trying! We'll see what happens. Justin actually said something that surprised me today, when I was talking to him about all of this and that I had talked to Pastor Joel, he said he feels like "if God didn't want us to do this, he would've gotten his paperwork back with a not approved status"... and I suppose he probably is right, at least to a point, like I mentioned before since I feel like we haven't quite done everything WE can. I would just hate to give up because they are jerking us around, and have it be that he would've been approved (and there's no reason he won't be), ya know what I mean? I dunno... I suppose I'm rambling and repeating myself now. lol
So anyway, I guess that's what there is to update on right now. I went on a bike ride with my SIL tonight. We only went 7 miles though. But, better than nothing! :) I suppose I'll get ready for bed, gonna be a long (but, exciting!!) day tomorrow!!! I hope you all enjoy your Friday!!
1. I'm sooooo excited for my friend and the news she shared with me today!
2. I'm thankful that I get to spend at least MOST of the weekend with my hubby!
3. I am thankful for getting even a little bit of money today, (especially more than I was expecting!) :)
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