"Do not let your hearts be troubled."

It's not every day that your pastor shaves his beard and mustache in the middle of his sermon. :) Haha I love our church! So glad my SIL was able to go with G & I today. Once again, his sermon was amazing, very thought provoking.

"We have to ACT like we are in control, but acknowledge that God actually IS."

Do you get this? I mean REALLY get this??? It means that YES, God is always in control of how things go. However, it doesn't mean that we get to sit idly by, on our hands, and do nothing about whatever situation we are in.  "God helps those who help themselves." That kind of thing. I was reminded of a story when our pastor was preaching on this subject this morning. It was something about a man hears over the radio about an immanent flood approaching so he decides to go to his rooftop to avoid the already rising waters. He prays to God to save him. A few minutes later a helicopter comes by and offers to take him, he says no thanks God will save me.  His house begins to break apart and he finds himself clinging to a tree. A police boat comes by offering to help the man, he again says no thanks God will save me. The tree gives way and the man succumbs to his death. When standing before the Lord he says, God why didn't you save me?? God replied that he tried!! He warned him over the radio, he sent a helicopter and a boat!It's this type of thing. You have to help yourself! God is always in control, but he wants us to also do for ourselves.

I'm feeling kind of uneasy tonight. I'm sure of the reason why, but I'm not going to get into it on here. I know that things will work themselves out and be ok & I'm really working on the "worrying" thing that I'm so infamous for. I know it's in God's hands and I just need to trust Him. If you could say an extra prayer for me, I greatly would appreciate it.

I'm going to up to help my SIL at her job tomorrow. She txt me this past week and asked if I could come up for a few hours a day (not sure how many days) and help them get things filed and mailed, so of course I said I would. I'm gonna go whenever she's ready for me tomorrow afternoon and Justin will get to have Daddy/G-Mac time. :) I know he's already looking forward to that! I haven't gotten to see her recently so it'll be good to chat with her, too. (I have 3 different SILs in case you were wondering!)

I went to GB tonight to hang out with my fam. Hadn't seen them for awhile. It's always so good to be "home", even if it's just for a few hours. I know they sure enjoy getting to see G. :) We just kinda hung out and chatted for a couple hours and then G and I headed home. Just got home about an hour or so ago. G was super sleepy so she went right to sleep! She had a great night of sleep last night, let's hope tonight will be the same! :)

I'm glad Justin will be off the next 2 days. I'm looking forward to getting to spend some time with him again. :) I'm hoping to get back out to run again tomorrow night, but we'll see what time he gets home from the fire meeting.

I'm sure missing my mom a lot lately. Not that I'm usually not, but it's just really pulling on my heart in the last little while. I just find myself really missing HER. Everything about her. I really miss just being able to call and chat about something or nothing, haha even several times a day. Even typing those words just made me cry. When I was on my way to GB this evening I saw this...

I always take a picture when I see things like this. It's just another reminder she's always here with me. And I know that, I don't ever forget that. But it's just so hard for her not to be HERE. To see G, to get to hold her, to get to love her, to get to see and hear about all the things she's doing. My heart is broken. It doesn't get easier. Anyone who thinks that is crazy. You just learn to "manage" differently, it's NOT easier. I just miss her. I am thankful for the times I had with her, but I can't help but keep thinking about all she missed out on, all she WILL miss out on...... a piece of my heart is gone and won't ever be back. Sometimes I still can't believe it. My heart just hurts. A lot. I just wish she was here. More than anything, I wish she was here.............. I love you Mama, and I miss you so much, every second of every day. 

Sorry this kind of took such a "downer" turn... but it's my blog and I write how I feel, no matter what that may be... *Sigh* Guess I'll take my puffy eyes, tears streaming down my face, self to bed..... 

1. I'm thankful for the message in church this morning. Always a great reminder.

2. I'm thankful I got to see my family and spend time with them again.

3. I'm ecstatic for a friend who announced she's lost 50lbs today!!!!! So proud of you!

Love