Just what I needed

Church. It was just what I needed this morning. It was great to be back. Even though I went with just G (Justin's aunt and cousin usually go with me) it was great to be there. It felt like "home". I haven't been except once since G was born. She'll be 3 months old this coming week. (I can't believe it!) It is hard sometimes taking a newborn places. Justin's been gone with the USMC and with work a lot this summer, so he hasn't been home to keep her while I go. She has gotten to the point where she doesn't want to just "sit", she wants to be up, moving around, so I was nervous to take her to church because I didn't want her to get upset and just cry and we'd have to leave or spend the whole service in the foyer where we couldn't hear anything anyway. So we just didn't go. I've realized these are allllllll just terrible excuses. There is no excuse. I should've gone. I love church, my church. It's so engaging, exciting, wonderful, makes me feel really good. Why would I choose not to go??? I don't know, but that's the past. I went this morning and it felt great. The sermon was about promises and being a promise keeper. Pastor Joel spoke about many different scenarios, it makes me wonder what you think about it. Jesus was a "turn the other cheek" person, but how often do WE really do that, like he wants us to?? For instance, he talked about at your job, how many times do you work and work and work and it seems like no one notices? What he was saying is, even if that's the case, you should still keep your promise, which was to work. It's hard to do things (especially for me) when it seems like no one cares about what you're doing, how much work you put into it. No one gives you a pat on the back or a "you're doing a great job". I'm that kind of person, I need positive reinforcement, or I get the attitude that it obviously isn't worth it. But being a promise keeper, means even when things are going great, aren't going the way you want them to, you keep your promise and keep doing what you said you would do. Another analogy he gave was in marriage. He spoke about his own parents. He said they were married for 25 years, and at LEAST 20 of those years, his father was unfaithful to his mother. How sad is that? But he said in the end, his father had lung cancer (and some other issues I can't remember now) and where was his mother? Right beside him, beside him every single step of the way. Because of the promise she had made to him. To be his wife, to be there for him, to love him 'for better, for worse'. I get this, don't get me wrong, I totally get this. You made a promise, you took vows, but at the same time, why should she have had to "deal" with that, the unfaithful part? When does her own happiness matter, in this case? Hmmm.... it definitely made me ponder things. But, do you see what I'm saying? He said that making a promise, like in marriage, is promising to love them even when they don't deserve it, promising to love them through it, promising to love them while they are becoming better people... That's not exactly how he worded it, but it's the general idea. I get it. But, at the same time, why should his mother have had to "put up" with her husband not keeping his promise to her for 20+ years?? You know? I dunno.... I can definitely see both sides of it, and that makes it difficult to understand, I guess. It made me think though! And I love things that make me really, really think! :)
I've decided to do a friends list clean up on FB. I just need to get rid of some of the negativity that certain people bring. I hate that, in a way. Some of the people that bring so much of it, are people I've been friends with for a long time. But I'm just tired of it. I shouldn't let other people bring me down, and they honestly don't, but I just hate reading every single day, several times a day, so much negativity! So, I guess, at least on certain people, I'm going to have to decide whether or not I will be ok with them being upset with me for deleting them, if/when they find out. Certain ones I don't see very often, and don't just "run into" them either, so it probably wouldn't really be an issue, unless I got an e-mail or txt or phone call, but I dunno. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, I really don't. That's why I haven't done this a long time ago. But it's just getting to the point now, I'm gonna have to do something. I just need to surround myself (in and off the internet) with positive people! People that enrich my life. And I have done that as of late, and it feels good. Sooooooo good. :) Hmmmmmm I'm gonna ponder this for a little while longer, but it will probably happen in the next day or so.
Today I am thankful for:
1. Church. For welcoming me back as if I'd never left. For making me feel at "home". For so many people making it a point to come and tell me they were really glad to see me.
2. My husband comes back home today!! :)
3. The beautiful weather!
I'm hoping Justin gets home at a decent time, and MIGHT want to go eat with me somewhere.  We shall see!! :) I hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday! I know I definitely am. <3
Love