I felt the need to blog again this morning because I am finding myself getting sooooo wrapped up in certain blogs. I have read so many different blogs and kept up with a few of them, of mommy's of babies that are angels now. It really breaks my heart to read about these awful experiences they have had. Most of the ones I've read have lost their precious babies to SIDS. ANYTHING that happens to a child that causes them to leave this earth, is just so, so sad! I cannot imagine being without my baby girl. SIDS or anything that could cause my child not to be here with me anymore, is terrifying. These blogs have reminded me, though, to take tons of pictures, memorize every little thing, never take anything for granted. You never know how long your time on earth will be. I hope & pray more than anything that I get to enjoy my child for the rest of my life. I just can't imagine how it has to feel to lose a precious baby. Someone you were just getting to know, someone that's personality was just developing, someone so incredibly innocent..... All of these people did everything "right" and yet they don't have their children anymore. How fair is that? Then I read these articles recently about a mother in a near by town that killed her baby trying to "warm her up" with a BLOW DRYER! Then her brother is recently arrested for a 2 yr old child that was in his care, ending up with skull fractures, brain injuries & paralysis. These people have no regard for human life.... those poor kids..... But then you have the parents who do every single thing right, love their kids more than life itself and have to lose them to something like SIDS or an infant illness/disease??? :( It's just heartbreaking....... After I read these blogs my heart just feels heavy. It makes me want to go pick up Griffyn and never put her down. It reminds me how precious our time with our kids is. How it could all be gone in an instant.
So to my "haters" who talk about alllll the pictures I already have of my *almost* 11 week old, sorry!! But I'm not gonna quit. I want to remember every single little thing about every single part of her and her life! I love my baby girl more than anything and I feel so blessed to be her mommy. Reading these blogs reminds me to hug her a little tighter, kiss her so many more times, hold her a little bit longer, cherish every single smile & laugh, play with her as much as possible & just tell her I love her 1,000 times a day.
To all the mommies who have lost their precious angels, I admire your strength, I wish you didn't have to be so strong, I wish there wasn't any reason for it. You have some of the brightest stars in Heaven now, watching over you. Thank you for sharing your thoughts/feelings with the world through your blogs. You truly are an inspiration.
Love
