Rollercoaster

Wow... today was... a rollercoaster. Woke up early this morning to get ready to take Griffyn to Hutch to see the eye specialist. He said everything looks ok and that if it's not cleared up by the time she's 10 months old they will look at them again to see if they need to do surgery. They have improved a TON in the last couple weeks so I'm hoping they are really on the mend. We shall see. After we left there, we went to the fair for several hours. My little brother and my dad were there with my brother's class so I met up with them and walked around for awhile until they left. Then, G & I walked around by ourselves for awhile. Heidi's boyfriend Jarid and our friend Josh were there hanging out so I walked around with them for maybe half an hour and then G had had enough so we left. Came home and was hoping to get a nap for awhile, but Griffyn only wanted to sleep for about half an hour. She can't seem to get the "nap time" concept for some reason. Most of the time she doesn't sleep for very long. Needless to say I was tired and was really hoping she would sleep for longer than she did. But oh well.... Justin txt me and asked if I would go get stuff to make enchilada's. So we did that then came home and made them. He was surprised because he was going to make them, but I just figured I'd do it and have it ready for him when he got home. He sure appreciated it! So then I went for a run this evening. Ran the longest that I ever have without stopping. It felt good. First time running in the new vibrams. They are definitely different. It's gonna take my feet and ankles some time to get used to them from my other pair, but it was still really great. It was nice & cool out so that made it even more enjoyable.

Every little thing seemed to upset me today for some reason. I guess I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. It just makes me sad that Justin hasn't been able to spend much time with G & I this entire summer. I just keep thinking about the fact that it's literally been since May since he had a weekend off... When he got home tonight I just sat and cried for awhile and talked to him. I told him, don't get me wrong, I understand WHY he hasn't been able to be here, and that if he wasn't doing everything he's done, we wouldn't be able to pay the bills around here and I'm not and wasn't upset with HIM, just at the situation I guess.... I just hate that the way it's worked out, we haven't seen him hardly at all..... :( Between work and the Marine Corps it's just been crazy..... Don't get me wrong, I know it's "life" and I know that he works EXTREMELY hard and I'm soooo proud of him, but I just needed to say that while I really, really appreciate all that he does, we miss him terribly when he's gone... :( It's hard. Now that he is going from night shift to night shift (because of switching crews) it's even worse. I hate when he works nights anyway, but now instead of just doing it for a month, and yesterday should've been his first day back on day shift for a month, instead, now he gets to still be on nights, for another month.... I hate nights because I hate sleeping alone but even more than that, he gets off at 7am, then he sleeps until 4 or 5pm and then he literally has enough time to get ready for work and then leave. Several times during this night shift month, he's had to work more than just his normal days so even the days he should've had off he was working... *sigh* I know I shouldn't complain, that there are plenty of people who don't have it near as good as we do, but I can't help that I miss my husband and that G needs to have her daddy, too..... I guess that's all I'm trying to say. Today for some reason, it just caught up with me.... I'm lucky that I have such a wonderful husband and he just hugged me and told me he understood and that he misses us too and wishes it could be different as well. Just another reason I hope the AD thing pans out. Yes there's a chance he would deploy, ok better than a chance, he would probably volunteer, but honestly to me, that's different, it's a whole different situation. I'm sure it doesn't seem like it to you, but it would be. But his "normal" job going AD would be 8-5, m-f. A LOT more of a schedule. I dunno... I just miss him.... I just hate that we don't get to see each other much. I hate that I have to make a list of things to tell him throughout the day and then try to get them in in the 30 to an hour that we do have together.... Ok, I guess that's all I will complain about... I know I have so many things to be thankful for, and I am... I just hope you can see that the bottom line is.... I just miss my husband.............................

Well, Griffyn won the photo contest!! She ended up with 203 votes! The next closest to her was 75. :) I feel so blessed to have had so many friends/family & even tons of people I don't even know, vote for her! Now we just have to get her session scheduled. I'm excited!! :) It should be a lot of fun. :)

There was other things I was gonna discuss on here, but I can't for the life of me remember what they were... I guess they weren't that important huh?? No news on the weight loss journey. Haven't lost, haven't gained.... I'm ok with it. I'm gonna have to go shopping and I'm also going to have to get my wedding ring re-sized. It's about to fall off my finger.

I'm excited that my SIL is gonna get to go with us to the USMC ball again this year too!! We are gonna have quite the crew! Justin's Dad & step mom are going, Heidi's going, Justin's G.pa might go, and my bestie is gonna go! It should be a really good time!! My WONDERFUL, AMAZING step mom told me last night that she is gonna try to switch someone so that she's off those days so she can watch G so that it's a HUGE relief for us too.  I'm getting really excited. I can't wait to get my dress! I'm sure hoping to be at goal #2 (and then some) by then. I'm actually hoping to be at goal #2 by our anniversary. So... I gotta lose 10 lbs in 3 weeks.... Hmmm not sure if they will happen, but as long as I'm not still sitting here by that point, I'll be ok with it. :) We'll see....

Anyway, I'm off to take a bath and then probably head to bed. I'm super sleepy tonight! Hope you all are enjoying your week. Tomorrow is hump day already!! :)
1. I'm thankful that G doesn't have to have surgery on her eyes!!
2. I'm thankful that my husband is such an incredibly hard worker & takes such good care of us.
3. I'm STILL thankful that we get to spend the ENTIRE weekend together. You have no idea how much I'm looking forward to this..... It's been wayyyyyy too long.
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